Saturday, October 31, 2020

2019 - Surprises

 2019 - A year of Surprise.


October 12, is quite important for me. My first public meeting as a presenter. My topic of presentation was "How to Unleash your potential" to the students of PG students in Pondicherry University.

My preparation was just the previous night with 3 coloured pens on A4 sheets of paper. A blue note for the topic and clues, red for the explanations, green for the examples, stories, experiences.

I did not get much interactions from the audience. I was very passive in this seminar. There was a background slide with just few bullet points and then I run through my commentary. I was certainly not reading out the slides.

One question came from the audience was - "How to have a good attitude". I responded with few examples to explain that there is nothing that mean a right or wrong attitude. You should know what type of attitude match with the required situation. One of the examples I used was breaking a coconut before starting a good thing - symbolically breaking our ego before we do anything. 

I now know, that of all the topic I presented this one question and it's answer could go on and on and could explain to an audience who are looking forward to start their career. Because it is one of the most important thing.

The October also gave another surprise. A call from the past. However today I feel that, sometimes we should  live in memories and hope instead of brutal truth or reality.

2019 is done.

നീ ചൊല്ലും കഥയിൽ പോലുംഞാനില്ലെന്നറിയാം...

 This is a lyrics by Sujesh Hari, copyright left to the original Owner.


These lines are very special for me...

ഇനിയെന്നിൽ സ്വപ്നമുല്ല  പടർത്തില്ലെന്നറിയാം...
പനിമതിയായ് സ്നേഹനിലാവ് പൊഴിക്കില്ലെന്നറിയാം...
ഉലയുന്നെൻ പ്രണയച്ചില്ല... കൊഴിയുന്നനുരാഗപ്പൂക്കൾ...
നീയതിനെ നാരിൽ ചേർത്തു കൊരുക്കില്ലെന്നറിയാം...
എൻ പാട്ടിനു നിൻ്റെ തംബുരു മീട്ടില്ലെന്നറിയാം...

രാവായാൽ നിഴലും കൂടെ പോരില്ലെന്നറിയാം...
പേമഴയിൽ നീയെൻ കൂടെ ചേരില്ലെന്നറിയാം...
നെഞ്ചത്തെ പ്രാവിൻ കുറുകൽ...അമ്പിൻമുനയാലെ നിലച്ചാൽ..
നീയതിനെ മാറിൽ ചേർത്ത് വിതുമ്പില്ലെന്നറിയാം...
നീ ചൊല്ലും കഥയിൽ പോലുംഞാനില്ലെന്നറിയാം...

Especially the last lines above... Even in a story, I will not be with you... that is the peak of emotions when you realise that you no longer present in someone's memories ...

I am still stuck with the last line. Is that really a nice thing? Why should we be living in someone's memory as a bitter truth...? Is it that going to make us happy? No it is not.

It is definitely a good thing that we are no longer present in someone's memory. It is really a blessing, because you know that every bit of those memories might start with a smile and ends with tears (really?) 


I am jealous with this lyricist on his ability to weep for a lot of souls...


Click here to visit JunctionKearala.com